He got off too fast. Then he got off on the wrong thing.
Jordan has a problem he can’t explain and can’t control—and it’s destroying his confidence one humiliating encounter at a time. When a friend passes along a name, Jordan tells himself he’ll try anything once.
Decker is a former athletic masseuse with a reputation for unconventional methods and a gift for helping men find what’s really holding them back.
Jordan expects massage therapy.
He doesn’t expect the moment everything becomes blindingly, mortifyingly, undeniably clear.
What Jordan discovers on that table changes everything he thought he knew about himself. What Decker offers next has nothing to do with massage and everything to do with control.
M/M First Time. Age gap. Light consensual bondage. No cheating. Spicy and complete.
With Nico, it’s the First Time, Every Time.




